Love just is.

November 19, 2010

Oh I miss this. (:

It’s been forever since I’ve blogged, my goodness.. how I miss it. So busy now it seems. Well, I have a week off for thanksgiving, and I plan to spend it with the family and blogging. Ho-ray! For starters, today happened to be pretty good. I had a lovely morning with my friend laura. We stopped for coco and donuts. Yumm :) Then it was off to school for a long day of school, but a very fun long day of school. We had a pep rally, which the theme was black out, that was very short but fun as always. I’m going to miss holding pinkies with my friends and singing our school song <3 I also had two tests today, they were pretty simple. During lunch I called my love.. it was a decent conversation compared to the conversations we’ve had lately. I can’t complain I guess. I’m still waiting for it to fall back together. I miss his voice more than anything, but I guess all I can do is be patient. OH my lordy! I have yet to tell you of the new boyfriend ;) HA! I’m sitting her with more hot coco biting my lip anxious to tell you how amazing this guy is! Well, his name is nathan and goodness is he special. He offically asked me out on July 19, 2010, and I’m so in love with him. He’s a marine, so I’m constantly worried about him.. He said it takes a strong woman to be with a marine.. so I try to not let him see how scared I am 24/7. He’s definitely a keeper <3 Anyways, I can’t stop staring at these gorgeous flowers. Sunflowers, dyed red! How beautiful. My favorite flower with a touch of flavor is the only way to describe it. Lol. They were a gift from my family.. I sang a song for Broadway Night at my school on Tuesday. I’m getting a little carried away with this blog, but I miss this so much. Mmm music always soothes the soul. Random, I know, but I can’t listen to Sam Cooke and not mention anything.. am I wrong :) Okay well, I’m done rambling for now. I’ll be back soon!

XOX

August 15, 2010

In a reeeally great mood.

Mm, warm sunny day & my baby on the phone. The ony thing missing is the ocean.. I love love looove the beach. Feeling the sand between my toes, a nice cold drink in my hand, and the sound of the ocean waves crashing in to each other.

April 11, 2010 2 notes

It has been a while since my last post..

I miss it. <3

January 22, 2010

If I had but an hour of love,

If that be all it’s given to me,

An hour of love;

Upon this earth,

I would give my love to thee.

January 10, 2010

Bad Mood.

“When you’ve loved so long

that the thrill is gone,

And your kisses at night

have turned into tears.

And your dreams are on

a train to train-wreck town,

Then I ask you now

what’s a girl to do?”

January 5, 2010

Where do I begin…

When will this end…

For so long now, it’s all I can think about. Talking to you, hearing your voice, just doesn’t feel the same anymore. I long for it to get better, for it to fix itself.. but it just keeps getting worse. I feel as if I’ve lost touch with my love for you, it’s fading..though I keep trying to hold on to it tighter. I don’t want to let go, I really don’t. I know I need you, but the reason is starting to blur. I want you to love me, but I’ve changed..I’m not the person I used to be when you looked at me..I can feel it in your voice. I’m just so tired of being here, I need to get away.. I need time alone. The pain I feel just can’t be explained. I don’t know how to tell you..or if I can even tell you. It hurts me just knowing I feel this way, I can’t hurt you. I don’t want to lose you either.. How do I make this work.. How can I make myself love you the way I used to, the way I want to. I’m just so confused. Tonight, these tears are for you.

I want you to have all of me, but we are falling apart slowly..

November 30, 2009